From 137612668a42deee2041b96eac09974d73de649e Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Lethe Beltane Date: Wed, 25 May 2022 18:26:13 +0000 Subject: [PATCH] New poem: Under My Fingernails --- feed.ass | 1 + feed.xml | 62 ++++++++++++++++++++++++------- poetry/index.gmi | 1 + poetry/index.gph | 1 + poetry/index.html | 6 ++- poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt | 46 +++++++++++++++++++++++ 6 files changed, 101 insertions(+), 16 deletions(-) create mode 100644 poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt diff --git a/feed.ass b/feed.ass index cdc74aa..8fe5379 100644 --- a/feed.ass +++ b/feed.ass @@ -1,5 +1,6 @@ # MayVaneDay ASS (https://tilde.town/~dzwdz/ass/) feed +2022-05-25 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt Under My Fingernails 2022-05-24 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/g/gradation.txt Gradation 2022-05-21 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/g/grey.txt The Grey 2022-05-20 https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/c/cultivator.txt Cultivator diff --git a/feed.xml b/feed.xml index 4c153a7..dfbb68e 100755 --- a/feed.xml +++ b/feed.xml @@ -9,6 +9,54 @@ Vane Vander vanevander@mayvaneday.org + + Under My Fingernails + + https://mayvaneday.org/poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt + 2022-05-25 + +
+One can't raise a caricature of a human being
+and then draw that same self livid
+when everything their child sees
+is out of proportion.
+
+Turn again the ragged page,
+but cover your eyes so you don't see
+the crude pencil-filled sketchings
+of my genus, my culled genious,
+blueprints of my taxidermy,
+footnotes of a contract forever ago signed:
+"You promise me that you'll be mine
+for as long as I can keep you alive."
+
+A blood oath
+that we both
+signed
+with the rivers through which flow our lives.
+But I got too much under my fingernails,
+double-crossed in reflex, same unleashing hell
+in a moment I made the mistake of asking if all was well.
+And when I noticed what I had done,
+I turned back the hands of time
+to when you and I
+were still alive.
+A memory is just a record, one that I can rewrite
+in case of failure, in case hard enough I did not try.
+
+You only know of this because this deep-
+sworn vow I am unable to keep,
+to keep to myself the number of rewinds.
+I am testing, and you are production,
+only knowing of the strand of fate accepted,
+battle-tested,
+deemed sacred and happy and true.
+Is it comforting, I wonder, to know
+there will be no futures where I hurt you?
+
+ ]]> + + Gradation @@ -211,18 +259,4 @@ Deny me Velouria's embrace one last time? - - There's no such thing as a TERF - - https://mayvaneday.org/blog/2022/may/terf.html - 2022-05-18 - -

(Before you grab your pitchforks and your OSINT tools and decide to doxx me, please understand that I am not a "radical feminist". I simply do not fit one hundred percent of the ideology's stances, including their insistence on misusing the word "individualism", and I don't like the concept of adhering my beliefs to any label. However, as my main concern is fighting for my own liberation, and I am a female... I find our interests almost always align.)

-

There's no such thing as a TERF- a "trans-exclusionary radical feminist"- because it's a contradictory term.

-

A woman is an adult human female. You may disagree, but we are talking about what radfems believe. No amount of hormone replacement therapy or mastectomies or the medical horror that is a phallophasty (seriously, who thought a skin sausage sewed to a crotch, on the highway to necrosis, would in any way resemble a healthy penis?) will change a female, trans-identifying or not, into a male. Science as it stands today cannot rewrite a female's XX chromosomes into XY, and vice versa with males. The removal of a female reproductive organ, such as the uterus, does not negate one's femaleness as the absence of a uterus has severe consequences for the female body: potential pelvic organ prolapse, urinary and bowel incontinence, early-onset dementia... Males simply do not have these problems as a result of a hysterectomy because they do not have uteri in the first place and their bodies aren't supposed to.

-

A transman is an adult (or will be soon), and a human (I would say "humanoid", but you and I are currently stuck in the Inside), and a female. Therefore a transman fits the radfem definition of a woman. However, a "transwoman" is not a woman because they fail the last criteria for being a woman: being female. As radical feminism is concerned with the liberation of all women, and transmen are women, therefore transmen are included in radical feminism. Either it is trans-inclusionary in this manner, or it is not for all women and thus not radical feminism.

- ]]> - - - diff --git a/poetry/index.gmi b/poetry/index.gmi index 244de90..1b48a12 100755 --- a/poetry/index.gmi +++ b/poetry/index.gmi @@ -154,6 +154,7 @@ => t/two-two.txt Two Two ## U +=> u/under-my-fingernails.txt Under My Fingernails => u/uncharming.txt uncharming veneer ## V diff --git a/poetry/index.gph b/poetry/index.gph index 3990728..6707099 100755 --- a/poetry/index.gph +++ b/poetry/index.gph @@ -156,6 +156,7 @@ iT 0Two Two t/two-two.txt iU +0Under My Fingernails u/under-my-fingernails.txt 0uncharming veneer u/uncharming.txt iV diff --git a/poetry/index.html b/poetry/index.html index 36bb95f..82115f7 100755 --- a/poetry/index.html +++ b/poetry/index.html @@ -74,6 +74,7 @@ ├── g
│   ├── garden-gym.txt
│   ├── gemini.txt
+ │   ├── gradation.txt
│   ├── green.txt
│   ├── grey.txt
│   └── the-golden-cage.txt
@@ -169,7 +170,8 @@ │   ├── twenty-one.txt
│   └── two-two.txt
├── u
- │   └── uncharming.txt
+ │   ├── uncharming.txt
+ │   └── under-my-fingernails.txt
├── v
│   ├── viaje.txt
│   └── victor.txt
@@ -183,7 +185,7 @@

-22 directories, 128 files +22 directories, 130 files

diff --git a/poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt b/poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..efa04f2 --- /dev/null +++ b/poetry/u/under-my-fingernails.txt @@ -0,0 +1,46 @@ +Under My Fingernails +2022-05-25 + +*** + +One can't raise a caricature of a human being +and then draw that same self livid +when everything their child sees +is out of proportion. + +Turn again the ragged page, +but cover your eyes so you don't see +the crude pencil-filled sketchings +of my genus, my culled genious, +blueprints of my taxidermy, +footnotes of a contract forever ago signed: +"You promise me that you'll be mine +for as long as I can keep you alive." + +A blood oath +that we both +signed +with the rivers through which flow our lives. +But I got too much under my fingernails, +double-crossed in reflex, same unleashing hell +in a moment I made the mistake of asking if all was well. +And when I noticed what I had done, +I turned back the hands of time +to when you and I +were still alive. +A memory is just a record, one that I can rewrite +in case of failure, in case hard enough I did not try. + +You only know of this because this deep- +sworn vow I am unable to keep, +to keep to myself the number of rewinds. +I am testing, and you are production, +only knowing of the strand of fate accepted, +battle-tested, +deemed sacred and happy and true. +Is it comforting, I wonder, to know +there will be no futures where I hurt you? + +*** + +CC BY-NC-SA 4.0 (c) Vane Vander